So, FTM here, 16 weeks. Have had infertility for 7 years so I dont feel very secure of my pregnancy. I dont feel like announcing publicly, just to some friends that I still talk to and some colleagues. But! I'm gonna talk to my boss soon about the pregnancy and as I dont work full time (only during weekend sometimes or holidays), I dont have much chances to see my boss. So there's a room to tell the boss before my anatomy scan on week 19, and I wonder if I should do a private ultrasound just to check if the baby's still there? I would feel like embarassed if I kinda "announced" it at work and then I apparently miscarriaged or something. Any advice? Anyone else do this too, just to "be safer" that the baby is still there and holding on?
I don't know, to me it's a state of constant anxiety that I'm just trying to live with & cope with, so I guess my brain just goes numb until the baby actually comes out healthy in my hand I am scared to announce that Im pregnant. Like what would I say if it doesnt happen. Ugh Im tired of living like this for 9 months 😭