trentahin blues
I recently turned 29… and I didn’t know trentahin phase does hit hard.
- I just moved to a new job, and I’m struggling with the very thing I’ve always thought I was good at. I’m scared they’ll cut me off. Nakakatakot, na baka hindi naman pala talaga ako magaling.
- A year ago, I migrated abroad with my immediate family. It’s a struggle... pero what makes it sad is that - I find it hard to genuinely connect to people. To the point that I am realizing my own painful truths too… such as not being able to develop my own “personality” growing up kasi it seems that i’ve always been wired to just try to fit in. And its sadder co’z now i’m back living with my parents who made me feel that way. And I don’t blame them, I think its the filipino/asian culture of being a “good child”.
- I’m also stuck between wanting to go on adventures kasi I feel left behind in life and experiences, pero at the same time gusto ko din ng something secure for my future.
- I’m also unhealthy and unfit.
Minsan, feeling ko I already “peaked” in life but I never imagined it happen this way. Ngayon, para nalang akong lantang gulay, walang plano sa buhay. Stuck, pero hindi rin alam kung anong pupuntahan.
Lumbay