u/Evilferalon

I (22f) am afraid I'm ruining my relationship with my bf (24m). We have been dating for about 6 or so months now. I moved into his parents house early in our relationship because my parents kicked me out. I knew it was too soon and bad of a decision to commit to but I didn't want to be homeless. Recently I moved back into my parents house despite the toxicity and mental abuse I am plagued with while living here. My bf doesnt like the decision and did make a very good suggestion before I left and reminds me of how I could've just taken his suggestion from day one to avoid living with my abusive family. now he feels alone and says there's a split between us. hes not sure if we're meant to be together. This hurts me very badly. I love him so much and despite my diagnosis I've been trying my hardest to do my best and make everyone happy. My mom disowned me atp tho and my dad only says negative things to me. if I leave him I will have no one. I will be alone. I am scared to be alone again I always have been. I am scared ill self harm again after being a year clean from that. I just wish I didnt make things so hard for him. he told me last night that he still has to pay rent to his parents after I left (something he didnt have to do before I arrived) plus he can't smoke weed because hes gotta save $$$ for rent. basically his whole life is in pieces because of my situation. I wish I could fix everything and make things easier for him.... but I cant do anything right.