u/Every_Atmosphere_504

So around 2 months ago I think, I decided to quit viewing adult content because I felt like I was almost addicted to it, at that point I was using it almost every day and I also started to notice that when I saw any intimacy happen my mind immediately went to porn, so it's been two months and really I don't think it had any benefit, I masturbate more mostly to my thoughts and erotica than I did the days before I completely stopped using it  (it is probably also due to me trying to relieve stress more often because I feel way worse because of other things) but I do feel that the more time goes on the more I am thinking what is even the purpose of me doing it, like my brain is already cooked and without it I masturbate more and feel worse (mostly not due to that but maybe also idk) so it doesn't really help me, I do feel like if I would do it then I would initially at least feel horrible cause I am breaking some sort of streak in my head, but if it has no purpose then again like what's the point why should I continue.
Thanks for any reply idk if it's the right sub for this type of post exactly but it's the closest I could find if someone could redirectme somewhere else I will delete it

Was falsely suspended on the second of march I didn't send an appeal every 48 hours partly because I couldn't be bothered and also there were some people saying you should space them out more but I feel like by now maybe I should have been unsuspended considering the amount of people I see that get unsuspended now but idk