u/EveryImagination23

The torment, hurt and pain im dealing with is really stating to get to me. In the midst of my life being hard enough to deal with i thought I had a partner in all of it and a safe spot who I could run to was a lie. I was lied to for years about an ex who is also apart of publicly humiliating me and hacking my phone. It's so hard to wrap my head around all these years I was told I was crazy and the post they would make me see was about their secret affairs. Fake accounts to communicate back and forth all while I was led to believe it wasn't him. What really broke me was a post that he said he really didn't want to be with me and her wanted her back. Why did I have to read it? Why wasnt i enough for you to be honest about your true feelings? Why was i left in the dark about the hacking and lies? Why are you getting pleasure off of my pain? If in the end you got who you want then im happy for you both. So why continue to hack me? If you are done with me ok then you both should stop the hacking. I cant even move on because I cant trust anyone anymore when they say they won't hurt me the way you did. Im scared to even give anyone a chance because im still so hurt by you. I don't even know if I want to let anyone get that close to my heart just to be hurt like this again. You have ruined me and my heart at this point.