I'm lost and don't know what to do
Basically title. I have a conversation with my parents every month that's essentially:
'I feel lonely'
'You're really mean to people. No wonder you feel lonely'
I just moved cities for college, and I'm finding it incredibly isolating. I love my college, but it's so hard to make friends with the others when I'm older than everyone. Also, the main thing people do here is smoke, and I have no interest in that. My work isn't much better-I get yelled at a bunch, and I work really early hours, so I end up tired all the time.
I don't think I'm mean to people? I try to be as friendly as possible and idk. no one has ever called me mean except my parents. They are right though, in that I don't have friends-because I don't in this new city.
One of my parents finally told me today, 'I know you're a mean person all the time'. The context was me asking them to rearrange an appointment for my work. They told me to stop victimizing myself and that I needed to grow up. I work two jobs, I pay my rent on time- I do use my parents car, but I pay for gas and maintenance. I am thankful, of course! I make it known how thankful I am since I know not everyone has that.
Anyways. I have this conversation once a month at least. I don't really know what to do, I'm so numb to it. If anyone has any advice on what to say in these situations please let me know. I don't know what to do.