u/Every-Economics223

TL;DR: Inflation + trauma + burnout = I can’t keep up with life. I feel weak, stuck, and exhausted, and I don’t know how to survive like this.

I'm 26F. My country is going through heavy inflation right now. The currency is at its all time low, and it’s affecting everything. Living feels harder every day.

I tried to survive by taking a customer service job, but it meant dealing with angry people nonstop. I’m not someone who can just detach. It got to the point where I cried every day, felt physically exhausted, and completely drained. I quit without even taking my salary because I just couldn’t handle it anymore.

Part of me keeps thinking maybe having CPTSD is just an excuse, like I’m not trying hard enough. But at the same time, I didn’t ask to be born or to go through years of abuse and neglect that left me like this, mentally worn down, constantly overwhelmed, and thinking about km/s even over small things.

I feel weak compared to other people who seem to go through worse but still keep functioning.

I'm ashamed of myself.

I don’t have marketable skills. I can’t find a job that fits my mental capacity. I’m still relying on my parents, and I have debt because I felt too guilty to ask them for help.

Honestly, I resent being born. I wasn’t planned, an accident, and I wish my mom had made a different decision. I don’t enjoy life. There’s more pain than anything else.

Every day I wake up thinking about how to survive, how to afford food, electricity, and how I’m going to pay my debts when they’re due. I’m exhausted. I hate living like this, and I hate myself for not being able to handle it.