u/EverDreamer991

I'm 35F and I've been alone for the past 18 years. I'm neurodivergent and struggled with complete isolation in the past. My isolation started when I was just a teen, so my essential adult social skills have never developed. I missed all the milestones of an adult life and I feel like I don't even have anything to talk about with another person my age. Every time I'm trying to get out of my shell I feel even more lonely and it makes me depressed. I feel like I'm oscillating between anxiety and depression all the time and I have no idea how to fix my life.