u/Evening_Way4978

i discovered hard drugs pretty much as soon as i got to college and it RUINED my life… i was an iv user by the time i turned 19 and i thought i would die with a needle in my arm… and to be so honest i wanted to… reflecting back, i can’t believe i am as sober as i have become… i hate it sometimes i love it others… i just wanted to say, if there’s someone out there struggling, it’s worth it!!! you will become happy again, you will be able to stay awake all day long (i couldn’t do it that for months) and go to sleep at night, you will learn to eat normally, you will learn to love your sober body… just stick around for one more day, one more hour, one more minute… i wish i could give you the happiness i have found… i remember what it’s like to not believe anything will get better or that nothing is as good as that high and nothing ever will be… but here i am. so grateful i got away from the hell that active addiction brought me… and i miss that high ALL the time… and i wish i had the secret to always feeling like being sober is the right option, but i remember if i am sober, i get the chance to have a real life and participate in my own life and the lives of the ones i love, the drugs made me blind to the love of others, and forgetful too… not to mention the teeth grinding and jaw clenching and unholy levels of tension all throughout my body and the constant sweating and horrendous paranoia and hallucinations are much more manageable… i can’t WAIT to see what 10 months and 16 days has to offer me!