u/Evening-Culture-3618

General TW / long rant

I can’t take it anymore. It’s affecting my entire life—even my education and my job. I’ve dropped out of college three times because she’s put me through hell and she’s ruined relationships and MANY friendships. It’s easy for people to tell me to take accountability for my emotions and impulses, but now I’m turning 27 and realizing the common denominator is HER. Today I even yelled “SHUT UP” at my junior high students and my coworkers were in disbelief. I profusely apologized to the students and they accepted it, but it’s completely wrong of me. Every time I live with my mom, I hate the person I become. It’s ruining my relationship with my younger brothers and grandma who also live with me. I was threatened to be kicked out and slapped today because she turned everyone on me. I can’t hold a full time perennial job because she’s destroyed me as a person. I’m afraid of everything. I don’t have any hobbies. I have no desire for romance or friendship and have distanced myself from nearly everybody I know. I’m unlovable, disgusting, and an embarrassment. My youngest brother abhors me because my mom taught him how to instigate and treat me like trash. I’m the disgusting fat sister that’s always angry. I binge eat because she has been commenting on my weight since I was 8/9 and has since denied it. Now I’m actually overweight and dealing with multiple odd health issues, from either trauma or my eating habits. I go to my low paying education job because it’s my only outlet after socially isolating myself and half of the students actually talk to me like a person with feelings. I still buy everyone dinner when they give me crumbs of love because I will take any positive interaction with them I could get. I’m worthless when I’m broke and even dirt when I’m broke, depressed, and ugly. Please don’t wish any harm on my mom or family, it will only make me spiral more. I just need to get away from her and improve my life and self-worth. I’m hoping to move out by fall.

Hi all, this is my second year with a Hobonichi Weeks. I usually do habit tracking and goal-setting, but I was looking for more in-depth content to write in my planner. I’ve tried mood tracking and mental health check-ins, but would like to see what everyone else is putting so I have more ideas and variety. Thanks!

Hi all, I left a jar of moon water sitting since July 2025. Life got too busy and I let it sit until I knew how I wanted to use it, but now I don’t know if it’s still charged / gone bad. Today, I decided I was just gonna set some intentions and use it for gardening. Would it still be okay to use? Thanks for any help.

EDIT: Thank you all for the advice!! I will wait to use it after Friday’s moon.