Hi.. I wanna tell you my story perhaps someone can help me gain back my life. I'm a man. I discovered porn at 13 and stopped watching it at close to 14. and now I have been addicted to porn masturbating for 1 year and 8 months now and im 18 years old..
In the early 2024 I was handsome, energized, masculine and I had this thing I can't describe it in any way cuz it was so awesome it's the masculine urge to be always better and better and better than the old you. I was into boxing, I gained muscle mass from going boxing and gym training 6 days a week. I always had jawline I was always energized and wanted to be better (the masculine urge) in September 2024 i was sitting and said why not see porn again? Little stupid me knew nothing And yea it's may 2026 I have been on porn since September 2024.
Porn resulted in me losing everything I'm now lazy I just wanna stay in bed for the whole day, My screen time increased to average 4 hours a day I lost the masculine urge I have a gym subscription but I don't go, I don't improve my life at all I'm sitting where I'm.
Its just so bad I hate my life now porn costed me my energy, my life, my confidence, my masculinity, my aura, my presence, my mind, my focus and I lost myself. If only I could get back... I have tried everything I have read easyPeasy book (worked and I went for 11 days then lost again and couldn't redo it since) I have tried making routines (never followed one) I have tried filling up my schedule (never committed to my decision) I have tried to limit my screen time, put my phone put of room (too mentally weak to do that and I couldn't) I spend my life now warning my friends not to ever cross the line into porn and watch some of them escape while I remain in pain and suffering I can't talk to anyone about it cuz I'm the "strong" kid Infront of everyone No one knows how deeply in pain I'm.
I have tried to move when the urge gets.. I can't.. I can't think when it hits I just can't move, think, react or anything I just want to finish then stay feeling like the worst ever. This is the worst phase of my life..
One more thing.. I had a girl that I wanted to talk to.. my final exam is in 15 days and I won't see that girl ever again and I'm too scared to talk to her, can't hold eye contact, I'm chopped because of porn. So porn costs my life. Please help me quit please