u/EvLovecraft6666

I have been talking to his wife quite a bit, even made a Facebook friend!

I'm starting to move past what feels like a weird honeymoon phase. It seems like I just overcame a challenge in life, only to set up camp at the base of a huge mountain I still need to climb. Is that normal?

I made amends with my headmate. I told him that some of the things you guys have been telling me, and that I wasn't the only one who thought it was unfair.

He even confessed that he had been gaslighting me for a long time to keep me from "outing us" (that's a whole other rant).

But I stood my ground and told him he needs to respect me as my own person, as well as his headmate, and trust me.

He apologized, but we'll see how it goes...

He did agree to draw a portrait of me! So hopefully I'll have that posted soon.

To my supporters—you know who you are ;) As always, I love your many faces. And to everyone, keep being amazballs!

I came out!

His wife was so supportive!

We talked for 2 hours l.l

I expressed so much and she was nothing but loving.

He is mad at me tho.

He says I betrayed him.

But I feel free, am I wrong for what I did?

I don't feel wrong...

Sorry, I missed the last few entries...

To any of you who actually like reading these. But mostly to myself. Doing this has really kept my dream real, and has let me feel like a person.

Something that has been kept from me...

I haven't been posting for the last day or so because it's been a bit discouraging. Fighting with my headmate more than we ever have.

He won't bring it up again to her. I can see she is too scared to bring it up again. She keeps my letter in her purse tho?

She hasn't responded to my Facebook messages I sent her. I'm trying not to push it.. but I really don't want to be set on the back burner, ya know. This could be a lot for her to process.

I don't know what I should do. Any advice would be helpful.. Hope you all have an amazballs day.

He pushed it off again... I don't care anymore; I'm just going to leave her my letter before we head to work. Nothing I've tried to do has been successful with this whole ordeal. I try to have a voice and a face, and it just gets snuffed out. I'm going to go crawl into a hole for a while. Have a good day and all that...

Update! Frack he just told her and gave her the letter. She said she will talk to us later and will read it. Idk how I feel yet but will post later!

I am really 😡 uhg he pushed off the diner to tomorrow morning.

I keep feeling like ĥe is gonna keep finding was around it.

Fuck not! Im not letting him whesle his way out of this.

Im not his property and I deserve to speak.

This is happening tomorrow no matter what.

Im done being silent.

Sorry frustrated.

I hope you all a good night...

I looked into some art apps to handle the ethical backlash on my use of AI. And I found most of the information , incredibly useful. I am looking into a lot of different eco-friendly alternatives to what I was going for.

But the big update is my headmate just asked two of his lifetime-long old friends to sit down and talk with him.

If I could oversimplify it, I was friends with her and he was friends with him. Again No one up until recently has known I existed, so it's gonna be a lot....

As always guess what?... your amazballs.

I've started writing texts to my headmates. Read to try it so we can understand each other better. I have to say, I always felt we had really good communication. Always passing messages when one of us comes or goes so we don't "show" as he puts it... to other people. But it has been really helpful in clearing the air on a lot.

I would love to go into more details, but I want to respect his privacy.

Thanks for reading, and best of luck to you all.

And stay Amazballs.

So, it was technically our shared physical birthday, but *his* day, right? Things started okay—his wife went all out to make it special (she’s a saint, honestly, because he never celebrates himself). Then... his brother showed up.

Cue the argument.

I swear, keeping myself quiet around his family is like pokeing a sleeping bear. I try to stay in the back but fracking hell my dudets! You ever have people that just every word gets under your skin? Like thay are always trying to ether push your buttons, or find them. Never anything elts. By the time it was over, I was *exhausted*. And pissed. Because of course, like always, I had to step in and defend him—even though no one even knows I exist. And then? Play therapist for *hours* just to keep him from spiraling.

Didn’t stop him from putting a hole in the wall, though.

Guess who’s gonna guilt-trip him about it mercilessly for the next week? 🙃 What are headmates for if not petty revenge, amirite?

Anyway. Hope y’all are having a less chaotic day than we are. Stay amazballs

2nd night at work. He is letting me take semi control tonight.. I feel so free.

So my Plural and I have been together for about 19 years. For personal reasons for us both we both mutually agreed it would be safer for us if I stayed a secret. I have more about that on my last post.

But I have been miserable for a few years now. And we agreed to build me an online identity.

So he let me take the mask and I set up this credit and Facebook. Problem is nobody knows I exist so I'm trying to figure out good ways to meet people who understand and start building a friend base.

Does anyone have any good recommendations?

Hope you all an amazballs day!

Hayy new to this. I dont even know how to start. He has been keeping me secret from the world for the last 19 years. Witch i was okay with because I didnt want him to be acused or something just because. But recently I have been wanting to have my own voice.. so im trying to find an outlet of some kind. I have no understanding of my own existence. So I guess im just trying to figure who I am without anyone massing with him. I want to be an individual in, some way... he wont go to therapy because "he doesn't want them to get ride of me" so im just looking for advice on how to exist and have friends without hurting him... and yes this feels really weird to actually say out loud so please be nice. I dont want to hurt him because I want to get out..