Type me Based off my Camera Roll ☕️
Hello there :0 here’s a little bit about me based off my own self image and what other people have said:
Appearance:
Very youthful and otherwise androgynous features, blending masculinity and feminine beauty. He sports long dark locs that fall past his shoulders with the ends having auburn streaks, big expressive almond shaped brown eyes that are further heightened by his signature black eyeliner, typically seen in a more casual formal attire, bright or black sweaters, variants of black office pants, and loafers that are inspired by MJ. Usually seen in either drip or PJs that are still remarkably stylish. He’s known for his bright smile and expressive batty eyes
Description: Sort of otherworldly and unusually magnetic, like a storybook character with an ethereal vibe he doesn’t even fully know captivates people even if he is rather self-confident. Seems less serious than he actually is but takes on quite a lot on his own due to his own sense of individualism and not liking to admit he needs help because it would mean he's vulnerable and he absolutely hates when people see him as such and take pity on him. He’s warm cordial, and polite yet also direct while also having this air of aloofness to him, can be intimidating when you get to know him or if you know of him, very much someone who aspires to be an on-the-go person who needs to keep moving and doing in order to maintain happiness.
Can oscillate between a lot of energy and no energy at all, usually at his best when caffeinated or just energized in general. An AuDHD goblin, very morally grounded and uncompromised despite having some very dark thoughts no one outside his circle knows of thanks to his trauma and struggles that he does get help for. None of his close friends from home or his family knew about his attempt on his own life and partial stay in the psychiatric ward and he really doesn’t know how to talk about it even if he doesn’t feel a certain way regarding talking about it. As a person he has firm principles and boundaries and has grown a lot to realize all of it, formerly being the type to do everything to make someone he loves happy before realizing it was nothing more than his trauma manipulating him on a string and resembling more of his thirteen year old self who was much more blunt and less likely to ever people please. Would hold everyone’s hand through problems and exhausted himself being the only one with integrity and the ability to do the shadow work and confront issues. He used to be timid and shy but throughout college became more assertive and able to voice himself, being charismatic and vocal enough to take a center stage role in projects even if he finds it exhausting having to be the one who does most of the work in terms of organization.
Very smart and witty but his cynicism and nihilistic tendencies can lead him to stagnation and rumination which can make him seem like the opposite of himself and this side of him is more rare yet seeing him like this is very evident he isn’t doing well despite him claiming he’s fine. He can be somewhat depressive and looks dead inside in these states, not wanting to talk to anyone. Finds it difficult to reach out to others even if he does care about them. He's very surprised that people say he lights up rooms and doesn't understand why he is so well-liked since he perceives himself as somewhat evil and he relates more to villainous characters with a vision or a grand dream. His top kins are Manjiro Sano, Fyodor and Chuuya from BSD, Angel Devil, Bakugo, Rick Sanchez, Rodrick Heffely, Thanos from Squid Game, and some people will say he’s like Mr Peanut Butter and gives off golden retriever energy/puppy energy even though truthfully he’s more of an independent soul who treasures the very few people he’s gotten close to and really isn’t as bubbly as he seems
According to friends He can either be a saint or the devil himself but he's usually justified in his anger and does what he needs to above all else, being fun loving while still remaining dutiful. He'd rather do the right thing than be liked and he actually despises society and humanity and copes with it by cracking dark jokes without a single care. People admire his sense of freedom and the irony is that he doesn't see himself as free and is very perfectionistic when it comes to himself and holds himself to the standard of either being the best or being nothing at times, and gets very frustrated by failures but bounces back just as quickly. In that regard it’s hard for him to see he’s hurt by something since his first instinct is to get back up brush it off and keep moving forward like an arrow through time. He looks down on anyone super dependent on others with no ability to defend themselves but would begrudgingly take care of them anyway
Deep down (he will not admit this) What he truly needs is a hug from a beautiful kind woman who'll melt his gangster exterior and maybe you'd see rare tears from him. He went from easily crying as a child to not being able to cry for more than three seconds. Is admittedly not great at test taking at school and has no interest in boring lectures with no engagement whatsoever but gets assignments done and is a major factor for group projects. Doesn’t really like school for its boring lectures and lack of engaging classes and struggles with grades and tests. Can procrastinate on work and struggle with deadlines somewhat but he turns in good work and is usually work before play. Kind smile but there’s a level of freedom that’s unhinged enough to tell you not to poke this one because he’s unpredictable and hard to really reach or read
Somehow old friends would say he hasn't changed a bit and they love that about him. He is a multi layered person with a deep internal world and a grand external vision he lives to see realized. He is who he is and does not care to be anyone other than his highest self. To his friends he’s their larger than life genuine companion who takes care of everyone but still needs to be taken care of and supervised himself. Terrible sense of direction but insight is always beyond spot on. He may be small but he’s got major presence and he’s usually remembered very well. He’s come a long way from being the lonely crying child in the green monster tunnel
Goals/Aspirations: When he was younger he wanted to live up to his name’s meaning (bringer of light) by fulfilling the abstract dream of bringing to the world a light that’ll never fade. The more he’s grown the more explainable this dream of his has become. He studies psychology in school and is currently going to graduate school to get his MSW in social work and he has his future envisioned perfectly. He wants to make external changes to underprivileged communities and make a difference in the lives of those who suffered from immense trauma like himself, wanting to be a good living example and a role model. When he envisions his future self, he imagines himself living in a nice NYC penthouse with a view high enough for him to look down at the city with a glass of wine in hand. He sees himself being even more beautiful, eyeliner even sharper, hair still long and beautiful, a collection of trench coats paired with a signature red scarf, and a huge smile on his face in knowing he’s accomplished a lot while having a sense of inner harmony. Has a graphic novel he’s been writing since he was a kid and would like to publish his stories more than pursuing psychology but Will ultimately focus more where there’s money and opportunities
Hobbies:
-Running
-Playing Action Games
-Creating Pinterest Boards
-Working on Self Insert OCs
-Boxing
-Dancing
-Being outside listening to music
Quirks
-Points at people and things, has very expressive body language
-Naturally makes people laugh and leaves them starstruck
-Described by employers as fun to be around
-A natural leader not through sheer command but through aura and an air of confidence
-Great social skills, tends to carry conversations but feels introverted and gets drained by people
-Looks up to MJ heavily and sees himself in him a lot and his loved ones see it too
-A modeling agent once referred to him as “Baby Jesus MJ”
-Is even more giggly and his rather chatty while under the influence, loving deep conversations always
-Can run for hours without getting tired, leaving his neighbors shocked who see him run every day
-Terrible sleep schedule, can be up all night and sleep all day
-Gets frequent headaches pretty much daily