The title is extra flowery to hopefully attract some like-minded individuals.

I consider myself an artist, a creative, and a romantic (in the sense that I believe emotions are valuable and informative).

I'm looking for something that starts as a text chat and maybe develops into something more. I totally dig sexting and sexual topics as well, along with general intimacy.

My Predicament

Whether it's because of isolation, external affirmation, media consumption, or all of the above and more, I have found myself becoming a very specific personality type. I no longer find it completely fulfilling to engage with most people, I almost feel as if I've created new needs for myself. I have become a very rational, philosophical, creative, considerate, and passionate person, perhaps as a response to my emotional framework. Engaging with most people is painful to some degree and leaves much to be desired in the way of self-awareness and understanding, I fear I may never feasibly find someone who shares the same realizations I do.

At the same time, this feels like an unspeakable potential, this ability to work towards such a deep fulfillment with another person. I feel like if I met someone like-minded we'd be able to build something beautiful and sublime together. So that prospect is what brings me here. I'm looking for a partner romantic or otherwise.

Specifics About Me

Okay, now that I've completed my nerd intro, let me present some more digestible tidbits about myself:

I'm an aspiring game developer and musician, I specialize in programming and 3D art. Many of my interests originate from game development, as it is a very diverse medium. It's an incredibly rich creative field, it really does introduce you to so much. I'm also interested in writing.

I exercise, it's fantastic for mood regulation and I feel it allows me to choose my neurochemical stressors. I also like to feel attractive.

I am pansexual, I do have a preference for femininity and androgyny, however I feel like ultimately what I'm searching for shouldn't be compromised by someone's gender-presentation, especially in a platonic context. Do not be discouraged from messaging me if you're not feminine presenting. I myself am definitely on the masc side, not heavily though.

I am empathetic, and respect that nobody is looking to have their toes stepped on as they make their way through life. I am capable of immense love and nurturing, I'd like to find someone who's the same. I am not looking to abuse, and I do not rationalize abuse either.

I'm a leftist, it's the natural conclusion to my humanist (consciousness centered) view of the world. I believe in egalitarian politics and realize the fruits of working for a better tomorrow today.

I can be abrasive (not to those I feel safe around), but only when it's morally justified. I might get into an extremely honest exchange with someone who said something insensitive or aggressive towards me. I try to stick up for the right thing, both for myself and others. I find security and agency in external zing myself in this way. I find some people are "conflict averse" and will try to shut down all involved parties even if it's not necessarily the right thing, so this portion is me letting you know that I am not conflict averse to that degree.

Conclusion

If you think we can fulfill each other in this way, I would of course like to hear from you. I want someone who I can fully invest myself in, and it doesn't feel worth it for most people. I want to love and care for someone and be loved and cared for on the basis of respect and passion.

I never try to stop improving, and I want to enhance my minds potential to experience and improve the experience of others every day.

I'll be delighted to hear from you. :)