I feel so dumb...
Hi. I'm a 70 yr old woman who has just come out to my transgender daughter and her wife. They are supportive and I am really glad I told them.
The thing is...I grew up repressing my sexuality for so long that I just pushed down all the feelings I'd had for other women and things really didn't hit me until many years ago when I fell in love with my best friend.
I never told her, mostly because I denied to myself that I had feelings like that for her. I told myself, "Oh, you love her like a sister." She and I flirted back and forth and joked that other people saw us as a couple. We both just could not accept it.
And then she passed away 2 years ago. I was devastated.
I am still grieving the loss and somehow that triggered memories and realizations going back to childhood, and that's how I ended up knowing I am bisexual and telling my daughter and her wife.
I feel dumb because...70? Seriously? Who realizes that so late in life? And of course, what can I do about it now, anyway? My daughter wants to take me to the Pride festivities next month but I feel..I don't know...stupid? Too old?
In fact, I haven't talked to them for a few days because I am still processing basically my entire life up to this point. To say it's confusing is an understatement!
Anyway, thanks for reading. Sorry it's so long. I guess I just had to vent.