Becoming a future SM
I’ve been a quiet reader for a while in this group, learning all that I can while trying to not get too anxious of my future.
A little background, I’m 32F living alone, no kids or pets. I’ve been with my bf 35M for almost 3 years and we want to get married and have a baby of our own one day. He has a son almost 5 who lives a few hours away. He had to move due to work and we met early in that move. The BM and son were gonna move too, but bailed of course.
He will move back in 2 months bc being a long distance dad is not healthy to either him or his son, which I absolutely support the move. We will be long distance for the year and I plan to move in with him this time next year. I’ll visit a lot and get to spend more time with his son as well. Both being remote will be great and it’s in a location with incredible travel and adventure nearby we can do with and without his son.
What I’m so anxious about is realizing how dramatically different my life will be next year and moving forward.. my current lifestyle to then living together finally, but in a different area and having his son 50/50. Im kind of mourning how we never got to live together where we are at currently, enjoying the exciting chapter of that without any stressors of kids or pets. I’m trying to not be naive and I’m already kinda mourning this change next year. I’ve met his son when he visited once for a few days and absolutely adore him and vice versa. I’m just starting to panic about how it’ll go, like this woman now lives with daddy and why tf does she sleep in daddy’s bed etc etc.
Idk I’m sorry I’m venting now. Please any advice or support helps. I know I’m walking into the lions den with the SM world. But this is my person and someone I’m absolutely willing to fight for.