Says what it is on the can really. I’m in the happiest relationship I’ve ever been in, but it’s long distance. We’ve visited each other, we spend nearly every day talking on the phone for hours. But I have OCD. So I spend a majority of my nights agonizing on how she definitely must be cheating on me because of one thing she offhandedly said that day. Or I’m gnashing my teeth and panicking because I’ve fully convinced myself that we’re not actually together, that I’m just some prank to her.
I’ve tried to explain to her that some of the jokes she makes (obviously sarcastic remarks because she’s confident that we’re made for each other), just make my OCD flare up even worse. But whenever I do this, it just scares her into thinking I’m going to break up with her. Inevitably I’ll wind up comforting her, when its clear we’re both in need of comfort
How do I get over these fears and insecurities? And how can I convey how much they weigh on me to her, in a more constructive and helpful way? She’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me, and I need this to work.