u/EriChan07

so, this is all rather complicated and ofc I don’t expect some sort of diagnosis but hopefully there’s someone here who can kind of say what could be going on or give me some advice?

in january of 2025, i developed motor tics. they were mostly my neck going to the side, facial grimacing/rapidly closing eyes. and eventually i visited my family doctor and i was given a lot of vitamins/pills related to digestion, i was pissed to say the least, since at the time i genuinely thought that they must be mental health/nervous system related. and i took them for like a month and then stopped taking them (looking back, probably not the best decision) anyway, as time went on, i noticed myself doing them more and more, though yeah there were periods where they were very frequent and periods where they were less frequent.

now, there’s another part to all of this. ever since i could remember, i was the “sensitive” child. i used to cry daily at kindergarten and elementary school, i only ever stopped around 7^(th)-8^(th) grade. i don’t particularly remember a lot of what happened before middle school, though i vividly remember having to do p.e. in 5^(th) grade, and sitting there, crying with my ears covered because of how noisy it all was. i was begging the teachers to let me sit in the changing room, just anywhere else but in there. i remember covering my ears near the loud ass school bell that would make me almost panic, in restaurants i was genuinely afraid of the hand drying machine. i’d wear headphones anytime i could, many times i’d be sitting somewhere, pushing my headphones into my ears and crying, just hoping, wishing that my classmates would quiet down. eventually, i found myself with some “coping skills” i guess, well: fidgeting. there was one year where I would excessively twirl the front part of my hair, and i mean that i was doing it constantly: in class, outside, in public, in private, those parts were so greasy all the time. it was comforting to me, feeling it’s texture, even at night when i was trying to sleep and my wrist was hurting, i just had to twirl with it. (actually apparently since i was a LITTLE kid, I used to twirl and play with my hair a lot, very comforting) another year, i used to scratch my scalp A LOT, as in there was blood under my fingernails and my scalp was itchy and red but that pain kind of kept me going, the texture of the bumps it made and the movement itself, amazing. ok this is getting ridiculously long, i also used to let my hair fall down my whole face and I’d stay like a shrimp, since the hair blocked out light and I’d sit and rip apart my split ends, for several classes every day. even as I grew older though, I would have those horrifying moments sometimes. sometimes all the noise, lights, touching, really gets to you, you know? tests were often hard to concentrate on, with the students whispering, teacher talking, pens clicking, paper flipping, electricity buzzing, i still remember one time when i was just rocking back and forth, scratching myself, twirling my hair, crying my eyes out and breathing heavily because i just couldn't focus on the test because of the environment, and the teacher just walking over to me and telling me that not everyone is good at her subject.

fast-forward to this year, i started excessively flinching from noise. i mean LITERALLY, from everyday sounds. someone sneezes? flinch. drops a pen? flinch, accidentally touches me for 0.01 seconds? flinch. and it’s BAD, like i do it so frequently that people ofc make fun of me, the louder the sound is, the worse my reaction is. and i found myself getting overwhelmed by noises WAAAY more frequently than ever before, i can’t handle it anymore. and i could never properly get if i really had tics or if i just flinched excessively, turns out i kinda do both? and like, my sensitivity to noise stresses me out, and the more stressed I am, the tics worsen, but sometimes i find myself flinching from a sound and then having tics after? i feel like I’m going crazy. and sometimes i find myself having “tic attacks”, especially when I’m already overwhelmed by my senses.

 

about a month ago, i’ve noticed myself having some vocal tics as well. though i was finally sent to a neurologist and he just told me to stop staying on my phone and not to stress out over things, i only have “motor tics” officially “diagnosed” I guess.

 

could it be trauma? something else? i have no idea. around 2 months ago i started trying out earplugs, they’ve been kinda helping though it’s complex i guess.

bună, am 16 ani, mă confrunt cu unele probleme, desigur, nu mă aștept la niciun fel de diagnostic, dar aș vrea să aud poate niște opinii despre ce ar putea să fie asta sau niște sfaturi?

în ianuarie 2025, am început să am ticuri motorice. cel mai des am mișcări involuntare legat de gât/cap, dar și grimase faciale, închid ochii forțat; eventual m-am dus la doctorul de familie și mi-a dat vitamine/pastile de digestie, eram frustrată să zic așa, deci le-am băut pentru cam o lună și după m-am oprit pentru că nu vedeam sensul (ok, poate nu cea mai bună idee) oricum, pe tot cât trecea timpul, observam că le făceam mai des și mai des, dar erau și perioade în care le făceam mai mult și perioade în care le făceam mai puțin.

deci, este și o altă parte la toată asta. de când mă țin minte, eram copilul ”sensibil”. plâgeam aproape zilnic la grădiniță, în clasele primare, momentul când chiar m-am oprit era prin clasele 7a-8a. nu îmi amintesc multe înainte de gimnaziu, dar îmi amintesc clar cum eram clasa 5-a și trebuia să fac ed. fizică, și stăteam și plângeam, cu mâinile la urechi, pentru că totul era ATÂT DE GĂLĂGIOS. îl imploram pe profesor să stau oriunde altundeva. pe lângă clopotul școlii, îmi acopeream urechile, era așa gălăgios că uneori credeam că voi intra în panică. în restaurante îmi era frică de uscătoarele de mâini. purtam căști cât de des puteam, am amintiri cum pur și simplu stăteam plângând, înpingândumi-le în urechi, dorind ca colegii să se liniștească. eventual, am observat că aveam niște obiceiuri ce mă ajutau, ”fidgeting” sau poate pot spune mișcări repetitive? era un an în care îmi învârteam/mă jucam cu părul din față foarte foarte des, mă refer că îmi era mereu în mână, mă jucam la școală, acasă, în public, în privat, era atât de uleios, și când vroiam să dorm la noapte și mă durea încheietura mâinii, eu pur și simplu aveam nevoie de aceea textură (aparent de când eram mică mă cam jucam așa) în alt an, îmi zgâriam/scărpinam scalpul excesiv, mă refer că aveam sânge sub unghii și aveam bube/cruste de bube mereu, îmi era foarte roșu scalpul și aveam mâncărimi, dar nu mă puteam opri. aveam nevoie de senzația aia, pentru că era singurul lucru care mă ajuta să mă concentrez și să mă simt mai bine în general. de asemenea, aveam multe perioade în care stăteam gârbovită cu capul aplecat cu părul peste față, pentru că părul ajuta să blocheze LUMINA becurilor/de afară, la care mă simțeam că mă orbește uneori, mă simțeam sensibilă la ea, și stăteam așa pur și simplu cât îmi despicam firele duble, era ceva ce mă distrăgea la totul din jurul meu. dar uneori toate sunetele, luminile, atinsul deveneau MULT PREA MULT. testele de multe ori au fost dificile pentru mine, nu din cauza la material, ci din cauza că mereu se șușoteau colegii, profesora vorbea, scaunele scârțiau, pixurile făcând clic, projectorul bâzâind, testele răsfoite de alții... odată dădeam un test și era cu totul copleșită de toate sunetele, și mă legănam înainte și înapoi, mă scărpinam, plângeam și îmi era greu să respir - și vine profesoara la mine și se râde și îmi spune că e doar un test.

anul acesta, am început să tresar de la fiecare sunet, LITERALMENTE. cineva strănută? eu tresar, scapă un pix? eu tresar, mă atinge pentru 1 secundă? eu tresar, fac asta zilnic la aproape orice, nici nu știu cum să explic cât de rău este, desigur alții își bat joc de mine din cauza la asta, dar și cu cât mai puternic e un sunet, cu atât mai tare tresar și mă stresez. și acum mă copleșesc de la sunete mult mai des decât înainte, pur și simplu nu mai rezist. deci niciodată nu am înțeles dacă eu chiar am ticuri sau doar tresar prea mult, dar cred că ambele? și, cum să zic, sensibilitatea mea la sunete mă stresează, și cu cât mai stresată sunt, cu atât mi se înrăutățesc ticurile. uneori tresar de la un sunet și am ticuri imediat după, simt că înnebunesc!!! uneori am ”atacuri de ticuri”(?), mai ales când deja sunt copleșită de toate lucrurile senzoriale din jur.

cam acum o lună am observat că am și unele ticuri vocale. totuși anul ăsta am fost trimisă la un neurolog, mi-a spus pur și simplu să nu mă stresez de la nimic și să nu stau în telefon. am doar ”ticuri motorice” oficial ”diagnosticate”.

știu că această postare e ridicol de lungă dar serios, dacă un psiholog mi-ar spune ce cred că e asta, aș fi extrem de recunoscătoare. acum vreo 2 luni am început a folosi dopuri de urechi mai des și mă cam ajută dar nu sunt perfecte

so, this is all rather complicated and ofc I don’t expect some sort of diagnosis but hopefully there’s someone here who can kind of say what could be going on or give me some advice?

in january of 2025, i developed motor tics. they were mostly my neck going to the side, facial grimacing/rapidly closing eyes. and eventually i visited my family doctor and i was given a lot of vitamins/pills related to digestion, i was pissed to say the least, since at the time i genuinely thought that they must be mental health/nervous system related. and i took them for like a month and then stopped taking them (looking back, probably not the best decision) anyway, as time went on, i noticed myself doing them more and more, though yeah there were periods where they were very frequent and periods where they were less frequent.

now, there’s another part to all of this. ever since i could remember, i was the “sensitive” child. i used to cry daily at kindergarten and elementary school, i only ever stopped around 7^(th)-8^(th) grade. i don’t particularly remember a lot of what happened before middle school, though i vividly remember having to do p.e. in 5^(th) grade, and sitting there, crying with my ears covered because of how noisy it all was. i was begging the teachers to let me sit in the changing room, just anywhere else but in there. i remember covering my ears near the loud ass school bell that would make me almost panic, in restaurants i was genuinely afraid of the hand drying machine. i’d wear headphones anytime i could, many times i’d be sitting somewhere, pushing my headphones into my ears and crying, just hoping, wishing that my classmates would quiet down. eventually, i found myself with some “coping skills” i guess, well: fidgeting. there was one year where I would excessively twirl the front part of my hair, and i mean that i was doing it constantly: in class, outside, in public, in private, those parts were so greasy all the time. it was comforting to me, feeling it’s texture, even at night when i was trying to sleep and my wrist was hurting, i just had to twirl with it. (actually apparently since i was a LITTLE kid, I used to twirl and play with my hair a lot, very comforting) another year, i used to scratch my scalp A LOT, as in there was blood under my fingernails and my scalp was itchy and red but that pain kind of kept me going, the texture of the bumps it made and the movement itself, amazing. ok this is getting ridiculously long, i also used to let my hair fall down my whole face and I’d stay like a shrimp, since the hair blocked out light and I’d sit and rip apart my split ends, for several classes every day. even as I grew older though, I would have those horrifying moments sometimes. sometimes all the noise, lights, touching, really gets to you, you know? tests were often hard to concentrate on, with the students whispering, teacher talking, pens clicking, paper flipping, electricity buzzing, i still remember one time when i was just rocking back and forth, scratching myself, twirling my hair, crying my eyes out and breathing heavily because i just couldn't focus on the test because of the environment, and the teacher just walking over to me and telling me that not everyone is good at her subject.

fast-forward to this year, i started excessively flinching from noise. i mean LITERALLY, from everyday sounds. someone sneezes? flinch. drops a pen? flinch, accidentally touches me for 0.01 seconds? flinch. and it’s BAD, like i do it so frequently that people ofc make fun of me, the louder the sound is, the worse my reaction is. and i found myself getting overwhelmed by noises WAAAY more frequently than ever before, i can’t handle it anymore. and i could never properly get if i really had tics or if i just flinched excessively, turns out i kinda do both? and like, my sensitivity to noise stresses me out, and the more stressed I am, the tics worsen, but sometimes i find myself flinching from a sound and then having tics after? i feel like I’m going crazy. and sometimes i find myself having “tic attacks”, especially when I’m already overwhelmed by my senses.

 

about a month ago, i’ve noticed myself having some vocal tics as well. though i was finally sent to a neurologist and he just told me to stop staying on my phone and not to stress out over things, i only have “motor tics” officially “diagnosed” I guess.

 

could it be trauma? something else? i have no idea. around 2 months ago i started trying out earplugs, they’ve been kinda helping though it’s complex i guess.

so, this is all rather complicated and ofc I don’t expect some sort of diagnosis but hopefully there’s someone here who can kind of say what could be going on or give me some advice?

in january of 2025, i developed motor tics. they were mostly my neck going to the side, facial grimacing/rapidly closing eyes. and eventually i visited my family doctor and i was given a lot of vitamins/pills related to digestion, i was pissed to say the least, since at the time i genuinely thought that they must be mental health/nervous system related. and i took them for like a month and then stopped taking them (looking back, probably not the best decision) anyway, as time went on, i noticed myself doing them more and more, though yeah there were periods where they were very frequent and periods where they were less frequent.

now, there’s another part to all of this. ever since i could remember, i was the “sensitive” child. i used to cry daily at kindergarten and elementary school, i only ever stopped around 7^(th)-8^(th) grade. i don’t particularly remember a lot of what happened before middle school, though i vividly remember having to do p.e. in 5^(th) grade, and sitting there, crying with my ears covered because of how noisy it all was. i was begging the teachers to let me sit in the changing room, just anywhere else but in there. i remember covering my ears near the loud ass school bell that would make me almost panic, in restaurants i was genuinely afraid of the hand drying machine. i’d wear headphones anytime i could, many times i’d be sitting somewhere, pushing my headphones into my ears and crying, just hoping, wishing that my classmates would quiet down. eventually, i found myself with some “coping skills” i guess, well: fidgeting. there was one year where I would excessively twirl the front part of my hair, and i mean that i was doing it constantly: in class, outside, in public, in private, those parts were so greasy all the time. it was comforting to me, feeling it’s texture, even at night when i was trying to sleep and my wrist was hurting, i just had to twirl with it. (actually apparently since i was a LITTLE kid, I used to twirl and play with my hair a lot, very comforting) another year, i used to scratch my scalp A LOT, as in there was blood under my fingernails and my scalp was itchy and red but that pain kind of kept me going, the texture of the bumps it made and the movement itself, amazing. ok this is getting ridiculously long, i also used to let my hair fall down my whole face and I’d stay like a shrimp, since the hair blocked out light and I’d sit and rip apart my split ends, for several classes every day. even as I grew older though, I would have those horrifying moments sometimes. sometimes all the noise, lights, touching, really gets to you, you know? tests were often hard to concentrate on, with the students whispering, teacher talking, pens clicking, paper flipping, electricity buzzing, i still remember one time when i was just rocking back and forth, scratching myself, twirling my hair, crying my eyes out and breathing heavily because i just couldn't focus on the test because of the environment, and the teacher just walking over to me and telling me that not everyone is good at her subject.

fast-forward to this year, i started excessively flinching from noise. i mean LITERALLY, from everyday sounds. someone sneezes? flinch. drops a pen? flinch, accidentally touches me for 0.01 seconds? flinch. and it’s BAD, like i do it so frequently that people ofc make fun of me, the louder the sound is, the worse my reaction is. and i found myself getting overwhelmed by noises WAAAY more frequently than ever before, i can’t handle it anymore. and i could never properly get if i really had tics or if i just flinched excessively, turns out i kinda do both? and like, my sensitivity to noise stresses me out, and the more stressed I am, the tics worsen, but sometimes i find myself flinching from a sound and then having tics after? i feel like I’m going crazy. and sometimes i find myself having “tic attacks”, especially when I’m already overwhelmed by my senses.

 

about a month ago, i’ve noticed myself having some vocal tics as well. though i was finally sent to a neurologist and he just told me to stop staying on my phone and not to stress out over things, i only have “motor tics” officially “diagnosed” I guess.

 

could it be trauma? something else? i have no idea. around 2 months ago i started trying out earplugs, they’ve been kinda helping though it’s complex i guess.