u/Ergane_Violaceum

To make a long story short, I had a production supervisor come at me all hot and yell at me that I don't have the right to send the production team out of the room when I'm the person who opens the fucking production room. I didn't release the room. I called twice to say I hadn't released the room. I told the production team to get out because I hadn't released it. Nobody answered me to contradict me. (Nobody ever answers me! I'm serious!)

My manager and supervisor are contracting themselves. My manager says she can send in a select few if we open late. My supervisor says I have to fully release the room before ANYONE goes in.

I felt the interaction was hostile, inappropriate, and unprofessional. But I'm not about to go to HR for this. I've had enough bad experiences with HR at other places to know the squeaky wheel gets fired faster. especially if you're the red shirt in the situation like I am. I'm just a quality tech who opens.

Its just a one time thing (if it happens again I'll probably just cry about it)

I just want a "I'm sorry if my tone wasn't appropriate" because it wasn't. I didn't leave my last industry to be yelled at by people in their right minds.

I'm just so mad, a "sorry" would smooth things over. At this point I'm calling any other supervisor but her. I don't feel comfortable around her after she yelled at me. When she was my direct coworker I got vibes like she looked down on me, so this just makes those feelings feel justified.

I'm incredibly tired of this company touting itself as the healthiest when they only give 49 hours. On top of this, if for every minute tardy they'll take an hour off your sick time.

I've been having health issues for the last 4-5 weeks. I haven't stopped bleeding, went to the er and found it's a cyst the size of a pecan in its shell. The bleeding got worse. I was able to book a gyno emergency visit for the next day at 10 and tried to work with my bosses on taking the two hours off (it's an hour round trip minus the hour I prefer to allocate for in case the appointment goes over.) I told them it's a cyst and that I've been bleeding for nearly 3 weeks straight. They could only give me an hour. So then I'd be fucked because they need to stay "in policy with the needs of the business". I'm fucking bleeding! I'm fucking depressed from it! It hasn't stopped! This is fucking bullshit! I'm fucking tired of hearing "the needs of the business"! What about your fucking workers!?

I'd quit on the spot if I had the opportunity at this point for the bullshit sick time policy alone.

So I was drug tested about 3 weeks ago. I panicked, not remembering when the last time I had smoked weed. So, in my panic, unable to control my words, I said I had used it recreationally. I have a panic disorder and it's incredibly hard to control myself when it hits. I love this job. I really do.

I passed the test, but because I said what I did, HR had to put it in my file that I said that. If I didn't have this disorder I wouldn't have said it. Honestly.

I want to move up in the company. But I have a strong feeling from past experiences with other companies (I got a write up once and was turned away for a lateral move) that I'm essentially locked into my job. I can't leave the company because they'd never rehire me due to this. I don't know if they'd even let me be promoted because of it.

I just need someone with more experience than I to just rip the bandage and tell me how fucked I am with my potential future at this company. I want to be a lead, just a little jump in position. I'm not going from tech to supervisor. I just want to go from tech to lead.

Its been eating at me that I had said what I did and now I'm questioning if it's worth being at this company if it's certain they will not promote me because I couldn't control myself or remember anything correctly. I doubt I'd just quit, I just need to let myself down now before it rears it's ugly head and it sends me into a depressive spiral.

I don't trust HR, they're not your friend. I know this. I know they'll cut down the complainers and anyone who questions the company about any and everything. It was a instance of my own trauma flaring and now I'm afraid my big ass mouth has fucked myself again.

For context, Being randomly drug tested triggers me. I failed a pre-employment test as a teen and through other, deeper lore not associated with the company, was effectively traumatized over something that's really not a big deal . So I associate random testing with the bullshit that happened after that one failed test.