I know I shouldn't, and its everyone's first go around but I feel I can't fight the feeling against my partner. We've spent years together and now we've spent almost a year trying and the whole time my wife has been very vocal about how her mom had genetic disorders that made it harder to get pregnant. Now we are a year trying and she's just now coming to me saying how her gyno has officially diagnosed her with these conditions and I can't help but feel resentment. Not at her particularly it's not her fault but I have spent the last year feeling as if it may be me, and feeling as if I'm the issue. I don't think she realized the mental toll it takes to have sex and know that climaxing is for probably nothing. It had had real emotional damage on our relationship. It just feels like being responsible I've wasted all this time making sure it was "right", meanwhile I'm hearing my sister is trying for a baby and I just feel worse accepting the fact I may never be able to have a baby the old fashioned way. I'm not sure how I'd handle my sister getting pregnant easily when I have tried for much longer with no avail.
I don't know if this is the right place but I love my wife and I fear everyday I may never get the chance to pass a little bit of me to her before I pass. This only makes me mad at both of us for the fact we don't have a child to grow that with.