u/Equivalent_Sorbet_73

Shed Theory's sound and entire image boils down to one thing. When you have done nothing but been on screens the whole day and haven't gone outside

When you can't sleep and have a rotting feeling inside your head. When nothing feels real anymore and the only emotions you've had all day are feelings of anger towards people you don't know

The feeling of every good moment being a cheap short high like candy for your brain but with a metallic undertone

The utter hopelessness of having given up on life having any meaning behind it

Being internet addicted, drug addicted, porn addicted, irony addicted

Shed's entire sound boils down to nihilism

I have ADHD and Bipolar and take a stack of meds for both. Right now my med combination is perfect for me, and I am high functioning

I have substance abuse disorder, with smoking weed in 8th grade and it escalating to my first manic episode where I took cocaine, focalin, weed, alcohol, acid at a concert and had delusions about women being manipulative

I was hospitalized twice. My most recent manic episode was 2020 and I went psychotic and thought the world was completely a "play" and also committed a boundary violation I am very guilty of

My life started getting better after I quit all substances. I then started working with both of my brothers at a desk job and my family is CPTSD engendering so this entire experience lasting 4 years had some dark moments where I was suicidal several times

My life increased in QOL with each med I added. Here is what I am on:

Wellbutrin - 150mg XL

Guanfacine - 3mg

Zyprexa - 2.5mg

Lamictal - 200mg

Vyvanse - 20mg (most recent)

The biggest boosts for quality of life were Wellbutrin and Vyvanse. Vyvanse by far. It completely reduced my social anxiety, depression, work ethic increased, reduced binge eating, rejection dysphoria decreased significantly

I practice a spiritual/religious practice and meditate frequently. I stay away from my family as much as possible. I eat healthy (vyvanse helps).

I've struggled with feelings of intense shame, terror and rage. But the past 6 months things have gotten a lot better, and I rarely feel any of those emotions

Does anyone have the screenshot of PBS posting to story or DM osamason during their beef saying "Link in Peckham".

Ts was so fucking funny to me because he chose the most unintimidating most british sounding city to try to catch a fade in