u/EnvironmentalBee5237

How long do you think it’s fair to wait before downloading a dating app? For context we dated for nearly a year and a half (including the first time we broke up).

Tbh I’m not interested in anything romantic or even any sort of one night stands, and I know it might not be fair to others but I think I just want to prove that I’m still attractive and worthy of romance? And I’m not going to be meeting anyone in person, mostly just wanting to see if anyone like…. Thinks I’m attractive and funny?

It’s probably not a good idea but I still want to know when an appropriate time to get back on dating apps is? My friend gets back from vacation in 2 weeks and she wants to do it with me, but that might also be too soon (it would be a month since the break up by then).

I wish I could’ve communicated better. I hate that I forgot my meds which caused me to act like that, but please, don’t block me. Give us time, let us talk about what happened, don’t just ghost me.

I just want you to think about your actions. It’s not fair that you can just leave the second shit gets hard for you. I hate you so bad but I also love you so bad and none of this is fair.

You don’t even want to see me one last time. I showed you I can change, I showed you I can be better, I am better FOR YOU. I have done absolutely everything in my power to be the right person for you. All I needed was a little empathy. I’m just exhausted with you having to fight with me just to consider my emotions even a little bit.

All I want is to not have to spell out that you’re angry. You don’t have to deny it, be honest. But most of all I just want to talk to you right now. I just want you to understand why things went down the way they did.

But yeah long story short - I’ve been unadded on everything or blocked except for messages. He will be picking his stuff up from my house. I asked if he was going to block me on that platform afterwards and I’ve been ghosted. He doesn’t want to see me, and won’t even clarify what’s happening. The last time we saw each other we fought and he left. No one around me (even the people he knows) will tell me anything. They apparently don’t know what’s happening either.

I just wanted to give him some space, but I guess this is it. There won’t be ‘another chance.’ It’s just this.