I(31F) don’t feel anything for my husband(35M) anymore
We have been married for 5 years. It was an arranged marriage. Due to MIL issues in the beginning and how husband didn’t handle it well, I am not able to stop resenting him. No matter how much I try, I don’t feel married anymore. I don’t have any feelings for him. Also, he is not the kind of person I like. I realized this very late. He lies alot, he doesn’t listen to what’s being said, he just agrees with everything. In the beginning I didn’t realize this behaviour, I was fool to think my husband is so understanding. Now, I can see how he handles every situation in his life same way. Only talks and no action.
We already have 1 year old. Leaving is not an option. We are in kind of roommate situation. I know we can go for couples therapy. But I don’t think i can forgive him for faking, lying and gaslighting me all these years. I just wanted to know if I can ever again fall in love with him? Or is this how married life is after 5 years?