Should I take psilocybin If my brother has schizophrenia?
I've been wanting to try microdosing on psilocybin for a while, I feel like I'm developing pretty well mentally and in a period where I want to "explore" more about my mind and evolve from that, I really want to discover more about myself. Also, I'm an artist, and most of my works are inspired by psychedelic imagery, which I've always been fascinated by.
That being said, 4 years ago, my brother went through an episode of psychosis, which ended up in him being diagnosed with schizophrenia, he's medicated and everything, but I've done some research and everyone seem to say that's its not recommended to take any psychedelics as it could put me in a risk of developing mental disorders too.
I'll also add that I've had my fair share of bad trips with weed, which almost always make me anxious or paranoid, and in medium to high doses I also experience derealization, which is my greatest fear - losing control over my own body really freaks my out, which is why I also don't really drink or smoke much.
I'm 24 and I know I have plenty of time to try it later in life, but part of me just feels like I'm ready and I want to try it, that's why I want to start in a really small dose, but once again, I would like to hear some thoughts about if I even should take psilocybin consider my situation, cause my goal is to find myself, not to lose myself.