u/EnoughReveal4625

I’m 18f who was recently diagnosed with npd (covert narcissism) after a bpd diagnosis when I was 16. I fucking hate myself. I hate being unable to feel empathy and care about others, I hate the fact that I can’t meet someone or enjoy their presence unless I’m getting some sort of validation or attention in return, I hate not being able to truly care for or love the people in my life. I hate that I subtly manipulate everyone I’ve never met and discard them when they stop giving me what I want. I hate that I get so angry and vengeful, destroying genuinely healthy and positive relationships over any slight sense of wrongdoing. I fucking hate myself.