u/Enough-Scallion-8913

the title explains it all. having acne as a hijabi feels so much worse because my face and my hands are the one thing visible I feel so angry and ashamed and get dysmorphia at my skin when i want to loom in the mirror. i got suggested that I could just use makeup to cover the scars and camoflague but i feel like its tabarruj still and like i genuinely feel like crying and wearing niqab over my face to cover my acne bumps scars but it dosent cure the spots and pain and ive seen a photo of me literally last year where i didnt have it seemingly now today i look at myself and my face is ridden in dark spots i hate mirrors i hate my face i hate having to touch my rotten face while washing during wudu cause the inflammation is painful everytime one zit is healing i notice others popping up i hate it so much i never get a break from it.

I dont know what medical treatments to start and if i should go to a GP or pharmacy first. Its ruining my life as a hijabi when i dress modestly and beautifully to see my apperence ruined by acne Ya Allah plzz.

Assalamu Alaikum sisters. The past couple of months have been absolute heaven for me because my last period was a few days before Ramadan. I got to fast all 30 days and even celebrated Eid without worrying about my period once. For a long time throughout March and April, I still didn’t get it, so I was able to read Quran, pray 5 times a day, and go to the mosque whenever I wanted without the stress of it happening.

And then boom. Yesterday I was travelling and started having cramps; I’d literally forgotten what they felt like since February. I got home and my period began, and I am genuinely demoralised. My periods aren’t as painful as what some other women go through, I think, but I genuinely hate it. It is so heavy and lasts 8 or 9 days. In past years when I had my period in Ramadan, I often missed the last 10 days or would feel upset at not being able to fulfill a certain Sunnah, like reading Surah Kahf on Fridays.

I’m genuinely so miserable and feel like I'm drowning in my own blood (not literally). I think about how animals have period cycles but get the privilege of not bleeding out because it just gets reabsorbed into their bodies. Even monkeys, who are the closest biologically to humans, don’t have to use pads or tampons. I find myself wondering why Allah made it so that humans are afflicted with the have to bleed out for 40 years every month, and I genuinely feel so deprived from Salah and Quran.

You might say, "you can still do dhikr and dua anyway," and I do that all the time, but it still feels different. For years I’ve thought about using medical procedures like an IUD or birth control pills to make my periods lighter or stop them entirely, but I’ve read stories online of it causing side effects or making people bleed for months instead of making things better.

So now I just sit on my bed or chair lost in thought, unpleased and unwilling to get on with my life while cramping, bleeding, and feeling "dirty." I don't want to do anything I need to do, like studying for my exams, until I'm towards the end days when it isn't so bad.

Sorry for any bad grammar or spelling mistakes; I genuinely lose all my effort and motivation when I get my period. JazakAllah Khair for letting me vent.