Problem/Goal: My parents are horrible. I want to get out of this household already. What do I do? How do I do it?
Context: Hi. F18 here.
My mother is an emotionally abusive person who would always corner me. She would go as far as to tell me that I deserved all the bad things happening to me (Will not detail so as to not be recognized, but it includes physical accidents, etc.). This happens way too frequently.
For more context, I don't know why she has been acting this way. I'm an honors student, never went out to do anything against their rules (never drank, smoke, etc.) and yet continuously is treated this way. Please don't give me the advice that I should "help" her. I want to get out of here and she is an insufferable human being.
She always did everything to support my eldest sister, even when she failed her College years, whereas I'm left in the mud for nothing. Don't even know if I can go to college.
I want to move out. In this economy, that's almost impossible.
I don't know what I'm supposed to do. My parents do not allow me to go out of the house either. My only option is to just run away. But I have no stable income. I don't have any relatives that can help me out either, my only option is to just, leave. I'm here now because I don't know who to ask for advice anymore.
I genuinely do not think I can mentally or emotionally take any more of this. She has been doing this since I was fourteen years old. My dad just doesn't care.
What jobs can I do, secretly? I'm a good writer, a fast learner. I just can't handle this anymore. Years of mental torment is taking a toll on me and I have no more will to live aside from the hope I can escape from here.
Previous Attempts: None. Might try jumping off.