I've cheated and my ex wants me back but I still don't trust myself again (27M)
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Hi I've cheated with my long term gf for a girl that I just know for more than a week.
I broke up with my gf the moment I wanted to really pursue that girl.
I explained to my gf that I wanted to break up due to our long term issue that isn't resolved.
After a couple of weeks my ex gf found out that I cheated before breaking up and still pursuing the new girl.
We talked again and my ex gf wanted me back, she says she'll change and would fix our long term issue so I can go back.
Now, I'm so confused.
I wanted her back but I don't trust myself anymore.
I'm flirting with the new girl and want to pursue her but I can't fully commit to her, because I still don't trust myself.
There's a part of me that wants to push them both away, but I'm afraid to be alone.
I like the new girl a lot, she teaches me new things about myself and because of her I learn than I can get out of my comfort zone if I really wanted to.
But my ex is already a part of my life and I felt something was missing during the times we don't have contact after break up, I cried everyday thinking of her wanting her back but I still don't trust myself anymore
What should I do?
I'm genuinely confused, you can talk shit about me cause I know how dumb I am.
But I really need someone to talk to and suggest things right now.
Thanks