Unworthy
Feels like absolute shit being this depressed over a guy I’ve only known for 3 months and dated for 2.
Was doing so well with 3days of no contact, starting to accept the reality that he was just not that into me and I will not be a priority and honestly just forgetting all about him. But today we talked face to face, i told him last time he was contacting me to give me 3 days of NC so I can calmly talk to him face to face.
The day came and he basically validated all my assumptions. Said sorry he felt that he led me on. That he wants to make me a priority but theres just too much going on with his life right now bla bla bla. Kept it cool during the entire meeting but man when I got home, I was an absolute mess.
I hate feeling this way about a guy I barely know. I feel so insecure that I am not worth trying and worth prioritizing. I have just been feeling so shitty. Sent him one last message to not message me anymore. He said he understood. Even in my last attempt, he couldnt and wouldnt fight for me.
I’m just tired of feeling this shitty. Feeling unchosen, feeling unworthy and unloved.