u/Endy27876

I used to have short hair for my entire life and I recently started to let them grow to eventually get a femboy haircut.
However my parents keep on saying they're bad and that I should get a proper haircut (they're ok with them being long) but I refuse to because I can't just say them that I want a femboy haircut since well, they don't know I'm one, and that would mean to get a long haircut that I dislike and I hate this idea but at the same time I know that I need get a proper haircut so idk what to do.
Maybe I should get something close to a femboy haircut so that I feel good with myself and at the same time something that can't be considered feminine so no one suspects a thing.
Any advices?

Recently I realized that I'm a femboy and I had the courage to tell a friend of mine, his reaction was.. not what I wanted but at least he doesn't hate me, but anyways, thanks to that I managed to tell more friends about this and that really helped me a lot.

All this time I've been wishing to dress feminine but I know it's extremely hard to do since I live with my parents and they don't know that I'm a femboy.

However no I came to a point where I REALLY want to dress feminine and shave my legs (well, at least those, since I hate most of my body hair) and I don't know what to do!

I'm so anxious and worried all the time because I keep thinking about telling my parents about what I like but I know it's going to be way to weird and the worst part is: before telling them I'm a femboy (and of course explaining what does "Femboy" mean) I need to come out as gay and I'm so fucking scared.

I keep thinking to some of their bs jokes about gay people and it's starting to pmo so bad; sometimes I've stopped them telling how offensive those jokes are but they just assume I'm saying that because I'm gay and I'll hate it when I actually will indeed come out as gay just to hear them say "See, that's the reason!".

Oh, and then I'm letting my hair grow rn and my dad REALLY wants me to cut them, he's so fucking annoying! Of course I said no every single time he asked me to cut them but this shit is driving me insane.

And lastly, again, how am I supposed to tell them that I like feminine clothes? Like they're going to make so much fun out of me 😭

Because of all of this I've been sad and not wanting to do anything all day, my friends are... not as supportive as I wish and I just want to cry all the time. Can someone help me?