My bf is my only real friend
TL;DR: I have lots of casual friendships but no close best friend or solid friend group. I’ve tried meeting new people and deepening friendships, but I often feel like others already have their own circles and I’m never anyone’s first choice. I love my boyfriend, but I worry that outside of him I don’t have a strong support system or real social life
I’m kind of what you call a “floater friend”. I have lots of acquaintances that I sometimes hang out with but I have no one I’m really close with, that I can talk about anything and everything with but rather I have a few friends that I sometimes meet with, catch up and then we’ll see each other again in a few weeks. I do like the friends I have but they all have their own circles that I don’t belong to and their own best friends. I don’t have a “best friend” or a circle or group.
I have an amazing boyfriend and I’m moving in with in less than 2 months and I can talk to him about everything but I just know that if we ever broke up I’d have no one to talk to. If we’d get married, I wouldn’t know who to choose as my bridesmaids. It feels like outside of him I just have superficial friendships and no real social life.
I’ve tried joining groups, started a new sport, tried deepening the friendships with my existing friends but for some reason it never works out. Either people are too busy, already have their own group, are not interested in getting to know new people or just don’t wanna be friends with ME.
Example: I met a girl at a friends birthday party and we really hit it off, we talked the entire night, had some good laughs and said wed hang out again. When we had planned to hang out, I got sick but I offered to hang out on another day. Then I got ghosted for 2 months and got a text out of the blue that said that she really likes me, we had a good vibe going on and believes we’d be really good friends but she’s too busy with working, studying and she has her own friend group that hangs out regularly and she doesn’t have time to get to know me. That was a slap in the face.
I had some good friends in the past but I was never considered their best friend even though I considered them to be mine. They always had a best friend already that they had known for ages.
I’d really appreciate some advice for my situation :) thank you!!