Me and my Ex are both 20 years old, I was his first everything. We had been friends for over 2 years and he had been in love with me that whole time, however I was in a not so great relationship, which he eventually helped me get out of. Now here's the kicker. We were long distance. We saw each other whenever we could. He moved to the states to play Baseball and I stayed in Canada to finish my degree. He has been having an incredibly difficult time down there, he is the only Canadian on the team and his teammates treat him like shit. He was also red-shirted which really fucked with his mental. Anyways, he broke up with my in March. Right after he had injured his shoulder. He is a pitcher and found out he may never be able to throw again. Then he broke up with me right after I dislocated my knee (I'm chronically Ill) perfect timing! He has ghosted me since but when either of us has been drinking we immediately text the other person. He's even sent me kissing emojis and told me that he cant talk to me because it hurts him to much.
Another factor is that we have several mutual friends, one of which he has sent to make sure that I am okay and report back to him. One night when he was drunk he joined a Discord VC with several of our mutual friends. He had said somethings that really worried me. TW he has been hurting himself. I just don't know what to do. I want to help him but he wont let me. He said the reason he broke up with me was because of the distance and that he didn't want me to have to carry any of this. I am also the only person who knows about all the Baseball stuff. I messaged him today and he actually responded. I told him that I was going to drop off his things when he gets back, he should be back in a week or so from today. He said "Thanks! I guess that would be a good time for you to pick up your stuff as well?" and that was that. I'm not sure if I should push well he is answering right now and see if I can help at all or what.
I am also hoping that when I see him in person I will finally get to talk to him. I just genuinely don't know what to do. He is the most incredible person and I love him more than anything. I just want him to feel like he has my support.