It's mad how I miss you like crazy even though I know nothing of your new life , the best year of my life I had with you , you drive me crazy, probably moved on , didn't know I was so forgettable 😂 obviously I am , but I'll always hold you in my heart until I die
Lots of love C
I knew it was over once you mentioned detachment, of course I tried to save it ,who wouldn't with the most beautiful woman in the world but yeah I should have saved many tough days and grew a pair of balls and stoppage begging, it's about respect, I didn't have it , it was more about what I want which was you , instead of quietly giving you what you want I acted like a fool, child , begging, pleading, nobody should do that , even at by age in learning about myself and what's acceptable and what's not, I believe you have made me a better person and now it's time to prove it , so I thank you for your calm presence, always the lady.
How did I manage to have you in the palm of my hands then let you slip right through my fingers, beautiful beyond words, heart that wanted love , we found eachother out of nowhere, like everyone says it's destiny, so much time together telling eachother our secrets, confessions about how we felt , we were destined to meet and we did , it went better than we could have expected after so long waiting to be as one , the passion , the laughs, the electricity we had between us , both alive again after so long , didn't want to let eachother go but we did knowing it was only a matter of time, sadly it didn't get that far for reasons we know, promised to stay In touch because it was special but slowly you disappear until I feel like a desperate idiot and looking so weak , why ? Because my love was unconditional and I wanted to breathe the same breath as you , I wanted to be part of your life and make you the happiest woman alive, give you the excitement and adventures we talked about, it only happens once in a lifetime and you were the person I fell in love with because you listened, you loved and you made me feel I was the only man on earth.
I just can't get no sleep, sounds like a song right ? But you keep me awake at night , I'm pretty sure since you left I don't keep you awake, separate ways because well we had to but sadly it seems I'm the only one who can't seem to let this go, it's sad I know , it's been awhile, I need to get a grip fast , the ships sinking fast , I wore your favourite black hoodie today and remembered how you loved it and your perfume was on it on that amazing night we had , time stood still that weekend, grabbing every second I could with you, it was you and me against the world , we planned future adventures, we held eachother tight , it felt we'd never ever be apart , here I am writing crap at 3:15 am like someone insane, you drive me nuts but you've gone, you've left , I should wish you happiness after years of being not loved but I'm still angry that you left me when I gave you my all.