It’s like people look at me and instantly see I am autistic and slow.
I don’t want to make my autism into just a bad thing about me even though it would probably be very easy to, since it feels like a lot of my problems are cause I can’t keep up with others.
I struggle being positive but I want to do anything that could make my life more enjoyable.
I’ve always known I was different but now it has a label and so in my face I can’t ignore it.
I don’t want to sound rude but I wish I was normal I feel so fucking stupid all the time, I try and make myself be less childish and more productive and normal but I’ve just ended up so tired. I feel like I need to prove myself that I’m not ‘that kind of autistic’, I know how bad that sounds and I’m trying to just accept the fact that I am this way. I feel like ripping my hair out and running until I throw up I hate having to work and public transport and people being too loud