u/Emotional_Exit6957

I’m a 22 year old man and I’ve been abusing alcohol since I was 16 I smoke a shit ton of nic and go threw vapes in like 2 days and I’m so scared something is going to happen to me every time I feel a random pain but I don’t want to stop and that’s what messes me up I don’t want to stop but I’m also so scared I just hope I can stop eventually but it’s so hard I just wanted to let it out some where because this conversation feels so taboo to have with my irls I just feel so alone because every one can use them for fun but I always just take it to the next level it’s hindering my life so much and setting me back but I don’t want to stop and I know I’m going to regret it in the future .