Hi everyone. This is my first time writing on here and I’m looking to get advice, helpful tips, or hear from someone who has had a similar experience. I’ve recently been binge eating almost everyday for the past 3.5 months and gained 60 lbs. I do want to note that for the past couple weeks I haven’t been binging as much and my head space is a lot better. With that being said…
A little background about me is that I grew up overweight and being the “bigger” kid so to say. During my freshman year of college, I started making lifestyle changes involving eating healthier and being more active. I naturally started to feel better and started losing weight. I continued to lose weight all throughout college. I began to feel more confident about myself, got more attention/compliments, it felt good to be to healthy and active, and I loved how I was fitting into sizes I’d never thought I be. Being called skinny was never something I thought I’d be called and it felt good to have people think of me like that. When I first started losing weight, it was healthy, but as I was continuously losing weight, it became an addiction, constantly worrying about calories, how much I burned, being active and eating healthy, and overexercising. I restricted myself a lot and feared gaining the weight back that I worked so hard to lose. Last year, I was at the lowest weight I’ve been. From 2022 to the end of 2025 I was down 80 lbs. Then I went home for the holidays and started eating a lot of food at night at my parent’s house. It was all the food I restricted myself of so long and never bought for myself. I thought after the holiday season was over, I’d get back into my routine and stop binging. I was wrong. It slowly led into me binging in the morning or at night every couple days. Then it led into an every day binge which then led into binging multiple times a day. I feel out of control. Every time I binge I say it’s going to be the last time. I’ve become embarrassed, ashamed, and disgusted with myself. I’ve gained a lot of weight in these months and can’t even look at myself in the mirror. I don’t feel like myself anymore. I don’t feel like I’m in my body. I’ve started to isolate myself except for when I have to go into work. I feel like a failure gaining most of the weight back that I’ve worked hard to lose.
I’m hoping most of it is water weight but worried that it’s not. I’m also self conscious with summer coming up because I can’t cover up as much. Does anyone have some helpful advice?