My parents were never religious, my mom isn’t a hijab(i), they drink (they hid it from me until I was a teen) and they don’t pray. I grew up in a non Muslim community then for a assignment we had about our culture I realized I knew nothing about Islam ( I was 12) I asked them why they never taught me my own religion and they said it was my responsibility whether to believe and practice Islam or not and they didn’t want to push it on me. This resulted in me having to begin at literally zero. Btw for those that might say I had it easier since I knew Arabic, I don’t know Classical Arabic at all. I struggle with modesty a lot since I am not hijab(i) and also wear tight clothing but never showed my legs or shoulders because there were still limits for my parents. This also means that most of the time it’s hard for me pray since most of the time I’m dressed immodestly.
Im here to ask how can I improve as a Muslim and start praying regularly. I unfortunately cannot pray the prayer (the second mandatory prayer of the day but it won’t let me write it in Arabic) because it’s on school time and I would quite literally get beaten.