I feel stupid posting this
I was married to a man (we are still legally married) he had been very emotionally abusive, cheated on me with men (I am a woman) and in two occasions did two minor assaults on me during intercourse. one of which he cut up the back of my legs somehow and I didn’t know it until the next day. We haven’t lived together in a year however we tried to reconcile around the holidays but he was living down the street from me he recently moved a few states away because he’s military and had to. he told me that he bought a gun a few months ago for defense and for fun and it scared the life out of me and he seemed to want me to know. Especially since he’s in the military and trained with them. When I told him it scared me he basically said I was crazy. I made an appointment for therapy and antidepressants. He never expressed wanting to own a gun but he did previously make me nervous with his extensive knife collectio. Im just wondering if I am being paranoid he did not threaten me but he did want me to know he has one. I just keep thinking of all the times he came over unannounced to drop things off at my house and he may have been armed. I have spent the last few months feeling really mentally unstable to the point where I did wonder if I was nuts and wondering if this is normal to feel this way? I have zero self worth after experiencing this. My parents are dead and I don’t really have anyone to talk to about this sorry