u/EmotionTypical5610 — reddlx

Hii so this is my first post and I know this space is for crushes and not really this but I just wanted some advice. So I (15F) had a crush on this guy whom I will refer to as G. So I liked G from like around January to august last year and all of my friends knew about this as well and they kept telling me that he definitely likes me and later on he did confess to me and I told him I liked him too but heres the thing our school is academically competitive and my parents don't really allow dating so after the confession I told him its probably best we don't date for the above reasons and other personal ones and I get that this wasn't nice (?) of me to do but i never told him I don't like him anymore but he kinda understood wrong and assumed I don't like him anymore. Also after he just confessed to me he started sending posts like "Men sleep better next to their wives" and idk if this is normal but it just seemed kinda weird to me. anyways when he confessed to me I obviously told my friend and like she wanted to talk to him and like basically tell him to be nice and stuff like that ( yes, this is the same friend who is now dating him). when i told her we weren't going to date she was probably the one who kept guilt tripping me and said as soon as you guys confessed to each other you suddenly didn't like him anymore even though i kept trying to explain to her. Anyways like both of them ig started growing closer and stuff and she started telling him small secrets between me and her that even the rest of our friends don't know which tbh kind of annoyed me and like if me and her had an argument she would send him screenshots of it and ask him how she should reply when she barely knows him??? anyways the confession happenend in august and she told me they were dating in like october but i was obviously the last person in our friend group to know and she told me around 2-3 weeks after everyone else found out... and i tbh didn't take it well i told her i was upset cause she took a while to tell me but tbh i wasn't sure if i still liked him or not. I kept trying to tell her how I felt and she kept shooting it down with "but is it my fault that i took time to process how i felt" anyways I asked her don't you think its weird dating someone I liked and she said she asked me indirectly if I liked him or not and that she doesn't really think its weird to date someone your friend liked... anyways after that she kept talking about the things he'd tell her like "missing you 25/8" and she told me and other friends he sent her like ab pics and that they were eye candy??? imo what was lwk stupid was the fact that their whole relationship was over text and they never interacted irl cause she didn't want people at school to find out or smth so since me and him shared a period together she asked me to give him things from her like his birthday present and when I would say no she'd say "b-but why... are you mad?" tbh idek if I'm in the wrong for getting mad at her for this or if im js hung up cause tbh although it's nearly been 5-6 months I still feel kinda weird abt it and im still friends with both of them too... they broke up in feb and got back together recently and like remember how she asked me indirectly if I liked him or not? yeah so when they broke up some friends asked her if she still liked him and she said no but they got back together anyways which kinda proves just cause you say you don't like them doesn't mean you actually don't... Idk if I'm just overreacting but I really need advice on what to do so I stop feeling weird when I see them