u/Emergency_Opposite42

At middle school, I was excited for highschool, at highschool, I was excited for college, then at college I realized after junior year, I've always been faking it and waiting for the next step thinking my life is gonna get better. What was the next step? Corporate? I did the worst corporate job after highschool and then decided to go for college and that's when I realize college was just preparing me for the same thing --> corporate. It's not even about travelling the world, I already travelled the world during college with part time jobs, I bought nice shoes, nice trips, luxury restaurants and things but it doesn't feel right to go back to work the next day, I realized I just want to be rich and never worry about money ever again, for me I don't see a point working a 9-5 to wait for 2 week vacation, I kinda want to be a bum but a rich bum

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On paper, my life looks good, I have acceptable grades at Uni, I go part time work and travel occasionally but my personal hygiene and life is pretty fucked up. I haven't cleaned my room in 6 months and sleep on my electronic devices sometimes because I'm to lazy to clean my bed, I struggle to brush my teeth and I was my clothes every 3 weeks until I don't find anything clean anymore. I masturbate chronically to the point I nearly faint, I cook until I'm absolutely starving and deep inside I don't want to be this bad but I have already enough with work and uni. I don't go to the gym anymore and running for more than 2 minutes would kill me, my room smells like shit, trash all over the floor and I don't seem to care anough to change it. My roomates seem to be fully functional, they seem to have a routine for cooking, their room is very clean and they make time for sports, working, etc.