u/Emergency_Cricket223

It's been 4 years since I last attempted!!! Yay!! I'm so proud of myself ^^ I got myself a celebratory donut and I'm gonna put 4 candles on it.

I can't really share the news with anyone irl because most people consider it too morbid, so hope it's okay if I post here 😊

It's wild to think it's been so long since then. 2022 was a tough year for me, and I feel like I'm still carrying it wherever I go. It feels fresher in my heart than 4 years.

I remember waking up the next day and saying to myself that this can't continue. I moved out in the next two weeks, I got a cat, and it's been upsailing ever since. Not saying it hasn't been tough sometimes though.

Year after year I've processed different parts of my past. Year after year I've moved forward. I've learned things I'd never want to know and I forgave myself for things I thought I'd carry beyond the veil.

I still have depression, that hasn't gone away. But I can live with that. I'm determined to keep fighting it.

I'm actually in college now! ^^

I get reminded randomly of all the things I would have missed, all the media I'd never find, all the friends I'd never meet, all the art I'd never make, all the beautiful things I'd never see.

In short, I'm so, so deeply glad I failed.

Anyway!! Here's to 4 and 4 and 4 and many more years!! 😊Thank you for reading ❤️