Being asked out
I'm someone who doesn't know what it feels like to love someone, maybe I haven't found anyone like that yet? I have had crushes but it never got anywhere because coincidentally, my crushes always end up studying at a different place or moved abroad.
I have a friend, we hang out a lot, but sometimes it gets frustrating because it feels like he makes me feels stupid, but we are good friends I think? We clash, and when sometimes we argue, he doesn't know how to argue and turns it into an AdHominem attack against me, for some reason we still get along? Idk.
He asked me out, and again I repeat, I don't know what love feels like. Does getting along with someone make it okay to go out with them?
I kinda want to refuse because of that fact that I don't know how love feels and I'm scared I'll ruin this friendship no matter what, it's also why I'm scared of people asking me out. What if this is the only person that is willing to go out with me in my life? I don't know why I have that fear but yeah... Then i keep thinking, what if he changes? Am I missing out by saying no?
I'm sorry for this being a ramble, I need some advice and need to hear your thoughts or feedback and opinions? Again, sorry if this was a ramble.