Don't know what to do with myself
I can't focus on anything, I can't even watch shows or play video games. I tried to leave the house and go on a little adventure yesterday in an attempt to feel better but it just made me feel worse, all I wanted to do was go home. I have no interest or motivation to do anything, I've been really struggling to clean or even take a shower. My apartment is a total mess. I don't have the energy to walk on my treadmill anymore, which used to help. Scrolling reddit is the only thing I can manage to do besides sleeping and literally just staring out the window. I live on my own and don't have a partner, or any friends that live in this city anymore. Sounds pathetic but reddit makes me feel a little less alone even though I don't talk to anyone or post much, I'm more of just a lurker, it helps a little just reading other people's stories I can relate to.
This has been going on all week with no end in sight, it's been complete agony trying to get through each day when my mind can't engage with anything. My only hope is raising the dosage of my anti-depressant when I see my perscriber next Thursday. Feels like an eternity having to wait that long in this state. I guess I'm just venting but hearing any tips on how to get through these periods of pretty much being dead would be appreciated.