u/Elegant-Effective858

This story is your choice to believe or not. But might as well be an entertainment.

I remember before i gained consciousness "before" surprisingly. I'm in the car back sit next to a mother and a son and the son is crying loudly, sounds like something hurt the boy, then the mother said "can you go faster" to the driver.

Not sure but i observe them first up and down, looking around as well. But i mostly observe the boy.

It's like i was having a final decision before closing my eye, facing towards the front.

Then i woke up in the hospital, laying down on the bed, with a tube flowing to my arm and my body. Can't move, can't talk much, even move a finger, probably new to the body or paralysis from the operation to my leg which i just learned few days later, and few weeks later I learned that I'm the boy who's crying loudly in the car.

Then everything goes as every childhood be, being a immature kid, learn, having unreasonable fight for small things, experience, cry, love, laugh, learn there's death, my grandmother was the first person i understand about death "properly" i remember every emotion mix together i was lost, but of course i was being ensured by my family she's in heaven and she'll watch over us.

Though this part is out of context but it shows that the final decision i made in the car was being ready to have my memory reset or wipe or ready to have a new life.

I still remember it about that memory before gaining consciousness, even as a child to adulthood, i told my classmates, friends, my teacher, adult friends and my family about it when i was a child, some are surprise, some doesn't take it seriously and some joke about me previously the hero of the country. (Very exaggerated of them, probably some doing it to encourage me being good.)

I even confirmed my mother if i was correct and i was, except her saying to go faster towards the driver, but it was a rushing moment she might have forgotten few details.

A lot says, they fall down the sky, some float around the house, some going down a long tunnel then to the house then the baby.

But for me, i just sat down next to my mother and myself.

Does anyone remember "before" having consciousness?

Edit: forgot to mention that i was a adult size in the car when i was sitting next to my mother and myself.