u/Electronic_Bus203

kagigil tong friend ko huhu. mga 2 years pa lang naman yung cof namin, pero etong friend ko kasi talaga yung tipo ng maingay at maligalig na friend na sobrang saya kasama. simula nung naging sila ng bf niya, parang puro na lang siya tungkol sa bf niya. noong una nakakakilig pa kasi syempre torpe pa sila sa isa’t isa, pero habang tumatagal, pabawas nang pabawas yung chats niya samin. tapos kapag may message naman siya sa gc, matic tungkol pa rin sa bf niya— either may problem sila or manghihingi ng advice whatsoever.

tapos kapag may gala kami, lagi niya gustong isama yung bf niya huhu. tipong “pwede ko bang isama si _?” like nakakairita na 😭 noong una okay lang samin kasi syempre gusto rin naman namin maging close sa bf niya, pero habang tumatagal nakakabwiset na kasi kapag kasama siya, hindi kami maka-chika nang maayos or maging comfortable kasi obviously di naman namin siya ka-close. parang kailangan lagi kaming may filter tuloy sa mga sinasabi namin.

ngayon sobrang dalang na niya mag-chat sa gc. as in hindi na siya yung dating maingay samin, pero kapag magkaaway sila ng bf niya, biglang todo send ng vms at chats 😭

yun lang, gusto ko lang ilabas yung inis ko grrrr

i’m an incoming grade 11 student planning to take abm. i’m currently studying in a local school—i was an ste student, a consistent academic achiever, a club president, a classroom president, and a class officer since grade 7.

i had a friend group from grade 6 to grade 8, but we eventually grew apart. ngayon, we only talk when needed—hindi na kami friends, pero hindi rin strangers. parang nasa gitna lang. when we reached grade 9, everyone formed their own circles. from late grade 9 to grade 10, i experienced bullying. i won’t go into detail about the reason (honestly, even i don’t fully understand why), but it had a huge impact on my mental health.

what hurts the most is that the people who used to be my closest friends became close with my bullies—and even enabled them. ang sakit lang isipin na dati, sila yung safe space ko, tapos ngayon, parang okay lang sa kanila na ginaganon ako.

now, i’m struggling because the person who started the bullying will also take abm. two of my former friends will be there too. i’m not sure about the others, but even just the thought of being in the same room as the main bully makes my chest feel heavy.

i tried convincing my mom to let me transfer to another school or university so i could have a fresh start, but my parents are worried about me being alone and possibly hurting myself. i understand where they’re coming from, but i still feel stuck. i don’t know what the best decision is.

my current plan is to still take abm but request to be placed in a lower section. my concern is that the academic environment might not be as strong—i’m worried about group work, getting pulled down, or possibly not getting the same level of support from teachers. since grade 7 to 10 (ste-b), i’ve experienced differences in treatment between sections, so that’s something i can’t ignore. maintaining a high gwa is really important to me because i plan to take the upcat.

on the other hand, moving to a different section could help me avoid those people, ease my anxiety, and give me space to heal. i wouldn’t have to dread going to school every day or fear being humiliated again. plus, i’d still be close to my family and current support system.

i just feel torn between protecting my mental health and protecting my future.

enrollment is really close, and the university i was considering for a scholarship already closed its entrance exams, so i feel like i’m running out of options.

i’d really appreciate any advice or perspective. thank you.