I’ve always been alone. Walking alone, living alone, breathing alone.
I’ve lost every single person that has cared about me to any extent. Some i pushed away myself and some abandoned me when i needed them most.
I can’t seem to be able to make friends as an adult.
I’ve been rejected so many times while trying to go up to people and socialize, it just feels useless.
I have no one to talk to. All i do is work and commit to being a corporate rat because there’s nothing else going on in my life.
It feels like i’m dead. I have no one to share my life with. I’m just observing everyone else live. Almost like a ghost.
I would scream into the void. I would beg for just one person that understands me to come along.
I’ve realized that’s useless. Some people just die alone.