u/ElectronicHotel8384

▲ 2 r/LifeAfterNarcissism+1 crossposts

Choosing Peace After Years of Abuse

If you were physically and verbally abused by your mother since the age of six over small things — like not getting good grades or not answering a question correctly while she was teaching you after school — it already leaves deep emotional scars. Then, after finishing school, the abuse continues for no real reason: sometimes because she is angry at your father, or because you do not feel like going somewhere with her.

Now, at 24 years old, living in a different country from her, every visit still turns into verbal abuse. The last time I visited, she even physically abused me in front of other people, which was humiliating and heartbreaking. The reason she managed to hit me several times was because I never imagined she would do something like that publicly.

People keep blaming me for not talking to her anymore, but I reached a point where enough is enough. I can forgive her in my heart and still recognize that her behavior is unhealthy and harmful. Maybe she has unresolved mental or emotional issues, because no parent should treat their child this way — and even if there were a reason, physical abuse is never acceptable.

So would I really be the bad person for choosing to cut contact and protect my peace?

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u/ElectronicHotel8384 — 4 days ago
▲ 3 r/burnedout+1 crossposts

Why do I always feel tired, sad, and numb? Whenever someone notices that I’m feeling down, they tell me I should be grateful for what I have — food on the table, a roof over my head, and everything else. And I am grateful, but that doesn’t change how I feel inside.

I have toxic people around me, and one of them has abused me both verbally and physically. Even though I’m aware of how harmful it is and try my best not to let it affect me, it still does. At the end of the day, I’m only human.

It’s starting to affect my studies and my future. Honestly, I’m really worried because I feel tired all the time, sleepy, and unmotivated. I don’t feel like doing anything anymore, and I can’t focus on studying.

I feel like I’ve lost my energy and the positive version of myself. It’s like I’m just existing instead of actually living.

What should I do?
Any advice?

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u/ElectronicHotel8384 — 7 days ago