We are financially f*cked up. (TL;DR iruku)
*sighs..
same as title, my family (me, mom and dad) are financially on a very worse condition. Debts, Loans, Formalities, ekkachakkama iruku, idhula vera en expenses um kooda.
Recently gave a shot on 12th exams and got a almost decent mark. (510, cutoff nottittu pochu.) Ini, en college selavu, phone etc. apdi ipdi nnu oru pakkam
innoru side la en athai ponukku seer seyanum, thaai maamana, neraiyave seyya vendi iruku (50k moyyi, apram her dress, and other sorts of items etc., total 75k vandhrum.)
idhula vera engalukku neraiya debts, loans ellam iruku. ellam adaikkyanum na, ennoda college years mudicha dha (andha nelamaiyla dha iruku.) ithanaikkyum, engalukku sondha veedu illa.
sondha nelam vaangaye ella paisavum theratti potaachu, adhnaala dha ivlo debt nnu amma solranga, adhu ennamo unma dha. illatna enga poyi veedu katta?
ithanaikkyum, en appa kitta Samsung S26 Ultra dha venum nnu sollirundhen, adhe mathiri nalla laptop venum nu sollirundhen.
indha situation laam paatha, adhellam nadakkadhu nnu therinjittu, appa kitta oru refurbished phone um (iPhone 13 mini), Government laptop um (yaar kittayaavchum low budget la kaasukku vaangi) vecchu rendu varusham ottirlaam nu sollirukken.
one time, amma was sobbing in front of me, when i ordered an iem and dac (total 1800, en kaila scholarship cash irundichu), aana amma adha reject panna sollitaanga (that was used for another purpose.) adhula avanga sonna oru vaartha enna azhuga vechiruchu.
"adutha jenmathla yaavchum unakku ishtappadha unnala vaangikka neraiya kaasu irukum".
annaikki night naa kadhari azhuthen, yaarukkum kekkama.
ennala indha vishyatha enakkulaye vechittu iruka thembu illa, adhnaala dha idha post aa podren.
TL;DR :
The writer talks about their family’s severe financial struggles, including debts, loans, college expenses, and responsibilities for a relative. Although they scored decent marks in 12th exams, they worry about affording college and basic needs. Realizing the family’s condition, they give up hopes for expensive gadgets and settle for cheaper alternatives. A deeply emotional moment occurs when their mother tearfully asks them not to buy a small audio accessory, saying that maybe in another life they would have enough money to buy what they truly wanted. Hurt by her words and the family’s situation, the writer cries alone and shares their feelings online. (thx to chatgpt)