u/Electronic-Common-16

I’m almost 18 years old and for the past 6 months or so I had started watching more ‘open’ categories to masturbate to, like trans or femboys. I kind of shrugged off why I felt turned on by these videos because I thought what I watched versus what I wanted a relationship with didn’t have a real correlation but over time I got worse and I kept becoming more curious, I’ve had fantasies of a trans woman dominating me or the other way around and I’ve even had fantasy of sucking off one of my gay friends but I just pushed it away and called it horny talking not me.
Then we get into 2 days ago. I got really fucking curious and I used a brush handle, olive oil and faked a shower to spread my legs and please myself from the behind and I keep wanting to do it now and I even somehow started talking a man. I made it super clear that I’m super confused but he’s so sweet and cute but I don’t know how to feel like I’m scared of people looking at me different I still love women too but people I’ve seen always called me gay to fuck with me just because let’s be real straight men act hella gay. Please somebody give me advice maybe? I’m not even sure what I’m hoping to hear but I think spilling this anonymously has already sort of helped me feel better. And also I just want to say this community seems very positive and thank you to whoever cared enough to listen to me. ✌️