u/Electronic-Bike-2527

hello! this is my first time openly joining groups like this and talking about my feelings. i am in my 20s. i find it hard to control my emotions whenever there are situations wherein i can feel like i do not belong. i always have this feeling of wanting to belong but the repeated cycle of disappointments in such desire made me into a person who'd rather run away and disappear to avoid the feeling of disappointment. in my years of existence, i have observed that i cope through isolation. i would fantasize one day leaving the life that i have now and disappearing to a new city. the problem is, i fear the feeling of loneliness and being the person that i am will forever haunt me. i don't know. also, i really do not need any comments with positive hopes. i just want to know something realistic.